My future

Am I able to grab my future?
I went to Saudi Airlines pre-screening and I passeed. But there is another interview for the final one.

Can I grab that future?
Everyone around me said negative thing about my dream. Well, some of it, not all. The dentist O went to see yesterday. Umi worried about saudi war on going right now. Abah? Ofcoz laa worried sick. Maybe. Cuz i didnt mentioned it yet. My mom, i believe she will b excited. Cuz i know she dont care. My sisters, they happy n excited for me.

I really wish I can passed. What I'm worried about is my weight. I can't control my appetite. Especially i have gastrik, so controlling my appetite is really a pain. Oh god. Can I grab that dream?

I want to go out of country.
I want to start a new life.
I want to collect wealth.
I want to forget him.
I seems can't forget him, my heart still beats for him. I can't find another man. And of course, no one ever likes me. I am just an invinsible girl. A very unknown, invisible, unimportant, unattractive, and insignificant girl despite my recognizable height.

I give up.
I dont want to wait for anyone.
I will do what I wanna do.
Despite everyone's whisper.
Despite everyone's negative feedback.
I will choose my own path.
I am not going to wait for someome who will not come.
I am not that kind of lady who just wait for their path to cross.
I will do what i want.

My pray, I hope Allah will always with me to guide my through which good and which bad.
To always shows the correct way and the light so that i will not fall into the dark pit.

Insyaallah.
Amin.

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Susah nak tengok Drama melayu Online

Macam tajuk kat atas, betapa susah nye la ak nak cari drama melayu online lagi-lagi drama kt tv tu. Kalu pakai komputer desktop atau laptop takpe la. Ni kalu buka link kt smartfon, beribu pop-up muncul kt browsew enfon smpai crash. Hishhhh.... Geram nye la. Orang eksaited nak cari drama tu nak tengok, sampai sejam pon xkan dapat jumpa. Sume Content Rejected. Tak pon kt skrin skali sentuh je teros direct to page entah pape! Wat da...!

Ak nak tengok Bukan kerana aku tak cinta, tak pon drama adaptasi novel yg berlambak kt tv tu. Nk tgk kt tv, mana ada mase. Kekangan masa. Nak tgk online, camni lak jadi nye.

Tonton? Piiiiiirahhhhhhh. Lamam web paling tak user friendly. Ak request forget password dari taon lepas sampai la ni senyap tiada kabar berita. Mengong. Sapa tah yg design benda nokharom tu... Ak siap wat email baru semata2 nak tengok drama kt situ, ponnnnnnn sama gak. Nak tunggu email pengesahan tu sampai sekarang pon xde kabar berita. Wat da hek. Menyampahhh laaa...

Las2,ke drama korea gak la ak layan. Nak mengharapkan drama melayu, harapan jela. Cam harammm... Bukan ak xnak tengok, tapi, orang2 malaysia (uploader yg letak bom pop-up iklan, orang yg p report smp content rejected, orang stesen tv yg buat tonton a very not user friendly, dan sebagainya) yg xbagi ak tengok.

Hishhh... Frustttttt gilerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

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