PeNaT

penat dengan keadaan sekarang
penat dengan hdup
penat dengan persekitaran
kalu bole ak nak pegi jaoh dari sini
jauh dari selangor
jauh dari perak
reason?
alaaa...bese lar..hahaaa...
ak bayangkan ak kat tembok besa cine, jalan sepanjang tembook tu,
sambil tangkap gamba
hirup udara segar...
Then,
ak kat Jeju island
jalan-jalan nek basikal
pusing sekitar pulau
of course tangkap gamba..hehe...
After that,
ak ke Japan
what city i dont know
ak jalan bawah pokok sakura
menikmati pemandangan damai
slow walk, sambil menghirup instant tea
THAT'S IT!
my wish...
hati ak penat, otak ak pon penat
I wish to live alone
tapi,
xbole... family first
but,
kalau betul ak memang da x d perlukan,
ak akan pergi...huhuuuu
bukan membawa diri, cume untuk menimba ilmu dan mencari erti hidup

Adab dengan org yg lebih tua dari kite,
semestinya kene jage kan?
kalu x mesti akan d label anak kurang ajar
ak xmau d label camtu
I'd tried my best to serve my unfavourable aunt.
at least one of my father's children know how to treat well the elders
agak terkilan bile teguran untuk anak-anak abah yg lain x d terima dengan baik
salah sape sebenarnya?
xbole ke fikir cam orang dewasa?
ni umor pon da tahap mak orang,
begayot ngan pakwe kemain lagi mengilai cam hantu pontianak
kalah hantu2 d malaysia nih, especially hantu pocong kat TV tuh
xhengat dunia
bile d tegur, langsung xnak terima?
baguskah begitu?
ok...whatever...
Just do whatever U want

Impian ak sekarang:

1. Nak tengok B kawin baru, bahagia, n lupakan sengsara dulu
2. Nak tengok C kawin baru, xyah keje teruk2 dah n only depends on that person
3. Nak tengok nina n isa membesar jadik orang yang berjaya, masuk asrama, success in life
4. Nak tengok Ema jdk arkitek yg berjaya satu ari nanti

tu je. that's it. so that ak xperlu nak riso pasal dorang dah. ak bole fokus kat diri ak je. tapi maybe at that time, difficult for me to focus for myself as my age goes old..huuuuuu....nak enjoy? mungkin sudah terlambat. tapi nak wat canne? itu je yg ak mampu nak lakukan...At that time, when they all have success, ak da x d perlukan lagi. At that time also, ak berharap kerjaya ak da stabil. ak bole pergi melancong satu dunia. Yepp... ak nie memang xbole d maafkan... jangan maafkan ak... ak salah satu penyebabnye...huuhuuhuuu.... tapi, memang ak yg mengharapkan benda tu berlaku. da xsanggup nak tengok kesengsaraan yg d alami mereka plus ak pikirkan dari segi ISLAM juga.. sorrie...hahaa..(gelak jahat)

Rasenye ak paham sebab ape anak sulung salu kawin lambat. Cam mak long ak. die kawin waktu umor nak 30. Sebabnye? sebab tula, rase terbeban dengan tanggungjawab. Cam ape yg ak rase. maybe laarr..huhuu... no offends...:D

Ape yg ak xnak jadik kat ak adalah, apa yg dah jadik lam kehidupan ak. I am a person full of misery. People didn't know. I never speak up about this. Because of them, my life is in brown. Luckily i have Allah to guide me through darkness. I just want to have a happy life. forget about the past, continue to live for the future. xbest laa... ak asek pikirkan masalah ni, sampaikan ak xmampu nak berdepan dengan mereka. rasanya, dah 2x ak terlepas peluang..haha... The first one, i dreamt about him, just past by me, as if i am an invisible person. Then, at that time, i know it. Its the end. Then, it is the end in reality. For the second one, i also dreamt about him. He just stared from afar, wore white suit, with sea blue shirt. The color was beautiful. N i know, this also was the end for me.. heheee.... Yepp... It's D END. i dont mind. i'm too scared to grab. Besides that, i want to avoid as much as i can. Not ready. Rase RIMAS~